power

I don’t have the time or energy
to help you feel more comfortable
with my lack of comfort
with my pain

I cannot make it my problem
I do not have the resources right now

I am unable
at this moment
to babysit you
soothe you back into
seeing me as complete
to help get you somewhere
closer to your own comfort zone
to find a way for you to put me back inside
your definition of me
see me as what
you think I am

I am busy in here
and in pain
have work to do
I cannot help you right now

but do not mistake my lack of comfort
my pain
my inability
to be something familiar for you
my process
this river of emotions
I must watch and sometimes even choke on
as it flows downstream
for weakness

for this stream is cutting
a canyon through me
growing ever wider and deeper
whose impact
product
will only be able to be
measured
after the flood has
ended
after the river has ebbed